Burned Out!

[motoki]

I have too many projects and I don't feel like I am getting any of them done at all. A lot of them are really tedious things and I really don't feel like doing them and when I force myself I spend hours and it doesn't seem like I am getting anything accomplished at all.

I feel really pressured because I promised a lot of things to a lot of nice people and I know they are depending on me but I have spent all my time modding (and fooling around on the various boards procrastinating from doing tedious modding stuff) and now I just feel really drained.

I'm not even sure why I am posting this except I just felt like I needed to get it out there. I feel really guilty because I really haven't gotten squat done in my eyes recent.

[Bravo 1]

I know the feeling, I have been procrastinating from finishing this keep for someone for over 2 months now! AND I'm nearly done... ...but I noticed it is easier to hang in there when I'm working with someone, so I think oldie will help you pull through...

Now, another tip, here's something I worked out about Morrowind; the reason that it stays alive like this is because peope mod and play, Morrowind can get boring when you repeat the main quest or get an uber character; that's when you go to modding and make some improvement/enhancement to the game. And then when modding pressure gets up, you go back and play and APPRECIATE YOUR WORK!

I ran out of drive a week ago, so I cranked up the game and started a character I would never willingly play, but here I am, gwaking at Better Heads...and being a thief! Now I know it's temporary, but it's very relaxing, and then when I finish this game, I'll plunge into modding and then...*cycle repeats*

[Mebyon]

I think Bravo is right. Ye Gods, we do this for fun don't we! I've reached saturation point with max and it's great just to either start a new character and see how long you last or, in my case, hang on for BB1.1

The BIG difference for you guys is that you have commitments to other people. That's hard as you feel you may be letting them down. Take time for yourself mate!

[motoki]

Ugh, don't get me started on BB. I'm in a very bad mood tonight anyhow, and they are adding to it. Since I am being honest, I may as well put all the cards out on the table.

I think BB is ugly and extremely unpleasing to the eye, particularly the male body. I didn't feel like I could express this (until recently) because I didn't feel like I could without being flamed to hell and criticized, but ironically a lot of other people in private expressed their displeasure with BB and the look of it to me. Because of this, I became very depressed and disillusioned and went back to the Bethesda bodies thinking I would never get a decent body for the game.

Then Faudau posted his body. It's awesome! He made the neck thinner and straight, lower the shoulders and chest and made the pecs bigger, made the arms more defined, the legs don't look so long etc. It gave me hope to have a nice body mod for once.

Then the BB enterage came over and although I didn't ever call anyone names (I did get a little emotional at times but no names) I was told I was flaming and trying to stir the pot by Neuman.

I exchanged some mails with Fariel and she was very nice, she always is. She seemed very open so when Neuman posted about the update today I made some suggestions and gave some feedback like he is asking for. He completely ignored it and although Fariel says they should look at using some of Faudau's edits and changes, Neuman afterwards overrode her and said "I nobody has any objections, this will be the final body". Well apparently I am nobody. So is everyone else who prefered Faudau's changes, and he belittles his partner by overriding her like that in front of everyone.

I'm tired of it and I am through with them and not going back there. I'm sick of dealing with some know it all con descending college kid who refuses to listen to anyone.

It really bothers me that the mod I worked on and love so much is now going to be forever associated with that ugly and inferior mod.

I'm so fed up about everything!

Maybe I should be Faudau to send me that body, even a WIP copy of it, so I can play with it and get out of my funk. *sigh*

[Bravo 1]

Well...now, not to contribute to slander and such (these forums will not turn into slams against BB, but you are free to express personal opinions), but I agree, that new body (which I happened upon late last night) looks quite nice and the neck is absolutely superb. But Fariel also did try to make an effort to please the majority.

The reason I'm not going to say that BB is terrible and the WIP is saintly is this: BB has been started from scratch and worked on for a looong time, Faudau on the other hand took BB and made it better...now it was a good effort on his part (though the unvieling of it could have been handled better), yet it is understandable that Neuman would not be pleased; when you work your arse off on something for over a year and then someone comes along with something BETTER made in less than a month, you kind of get pissed. I don't know what "issues" Fariel may be having with Neuman, but I will not pry into matters that are not my own.

I agree that Faudau's mesh is better worked out, and it would be best if they ALL worked together...but if they keep changing the bodies like this, Better Clothes will become a MESS! (frankly, I have BB, but do not play with it - and do not use any such body mods - as there are no suitable clothes for it yet).

Now, you are free to express disgruntledness and even anger on these forums, but to stop any flame wars from erupting (*eyes invisible spies;D*), you MAY express beliefs otherwise, but please start a new thread and do not swear or flame! (Motoki this was not directed at you.

And for the record, the stirring the pot comment WAS not called for, but I can see that Neuman may have been a tad frustrated...

[motoki]

I know that

Whatever I knew you were one of the BB crowd I don't know why I bothered to post that here.

Goodbye

[Bravo 1]

I was afraid that you would take it this way, now please check your PMs, READ THE WHOLE THING and then please, let's talk!

;D

note- I never considered myself part of their "gang"

EDIT: nooooo! he's left...